In case you haven't noticed, I'm an incredibly shy person. Except for when I'm around my close friends, I am very quiet and reserved. My shyness problem is so serious that it even influences my behaviour on internet forums full of complete strangers who I will never meet in my life. I'm even shy around my family and relatives (except for my mum).

The cause of this shyness problem? My paranoia of how others will judge me. Part of the reason why I don't blog much is because I'm scared of how people will judge me after reading my blog (even though no one reads this anyway). That is why when I do blog, they're more about recounting events in my life rather than my actual feelings and emotions.

Unlike a particular friend of mine who tells everyone about his/her paranoia of other people's judgement, I keep all my paranoia inside of me. Even with my very close friends who I love so very much, I rarely reveal any of my feelings or problems to them. I only have one friend who I occasionally have "D&Ms" with, but that's only over the internet because I don't want to see their expressions and reactions if it was happening face-to-face.

When I feel like I'm going to tell someone about my problems, I always think about it some more and in the end decide not to.
Although I may appear to have no problems, inside my mind is a lot of paranoia and various problems.

My new years resolution? Conquer my shyness problem. (Oh, and no computer before 5:30pm on school days so I can actually do homework/practise flute.)
Hopefully this blog will be the first step towards subduing this shyness problem of mine.

In case you haven't noticed, I'm an incredibly shy person. Except for when I'm around my close friends, I am very quiet and reserved. My shyness problem is so serious that it even influences my behaviour on internet forums full of complete strangers who I will never meet in my life. I'm even shy around my family and relatives (except for my mum).

The cause of this shyness problem? My paranoia of how others will judge me. Part of the reason why I don't blog much is because I'm scared of how people will judge me after reading my blog (even though no one reads this anyway). That is why when I do blog, they're more about recounting events in my life rather than my actual feelings and emotions.

Unlike a particular friend of mine who tells everyone about his/her paranoia of other people's judgement, I keep all my paranoia inside of me. Even with my very close friends who I love so very much, I rarely reveal any of my feelings or problems to them. I only have one friend who I occasionally have "D&Ms" with, but that's only over the internet because I don't want to see their expressions and reactions if it was happening face-to-face.

When I feel like I'm going to tell someone about my problems, I always think about it some more and in the end decide not to.
Although I may appear to have no problems, inside my mind is a lot of paranoia and various problems.

My new years resolution? Conquer my shyness problem. (Oh, and no computer before 5:30pm on school days so I can actually do homework/practise flute.)
Hopefully this blog will be the first step towards subduing this shyness problem of mine.

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